Losing a spouse is shattering and requires momentous life adjustments. The major loss and the new identity it plunges upon you take many years to adjust to as you were accustomed to your significant other’s continued presence, having shared with that person your daily life activities and conversations or the little negotiations over who will do this or that. But, when that person is no longer there then, it is natural that you grieve both these minor losses as well as the significant loss of your spouse because your you were preoccupied with thinking and dreaming about that person.

I Think of You

It is hard to find words

To tell you how much I miss you

I think about you always

I talk about you with other still

I wish I could see you one more time

From a distance at least

I could hear your voice one more time

Walking through the door

I know you can feel my tears

You can sense my loneliness

You can discern my heartache

That came in when I lost you

My pain of losing you

Will never ever go away

No matter how life changes

No matter what I do

When I am feeling disparate

I search for your face in the clouds

I feel unable to utter a word

But my heart cries out a lot

I yarn day and night for you

As each day dawns I think of you

As each night falls, I pray for you

In my heart, you hold a special place

You have never been forgotten

I hold you close within my heart

And  you will guide me through my life

Until we meet you in heaven